sam.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) always, dude. sign me up for the all access pass then cause i’m in.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) oh man, lmao that’s gonna take some getting used to. thanks for asking the question tho instead of guessing. stevie is my lil brother, and stacie is my lil sister. … yeah, i hope its not weird to say or anything, but you’re totally still the same blaine just fyi.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) lmao jokes on you (but in a good way :P). yeah… i can’t imagine. the bright side is you’re still getting better so progress is progress and it’s all worth it. i’m not a therapist or anything (but we did only get like two channels after school for a while and one always had dr phil on when we came home from school so maybe im like, a little qualitfied////probably not tho) but i think you making YOU feel better is the most important part right now because your the one that has to work thru everything, not them. you deserve to laugh, and to smile, and your feelings DO matter blaine. they matter more than anything else. seriousness is OVERRATED, frustrtaion is too which makes me wonder how they had such a big board game building around it, you know? like dont wake daddy? operation? trouble? mousetrap? JENGA? ALL FRUSTRATION GAMES.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) lol sry blame it on the dysexlia.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) hmm. idk can i be honest?
( mssg » blaine | sent ) lol nvm i know what you’re gonna say but.. pls dont take this the wrong way either cause i just dont know how else to explain it but like. i know you and everything we had and how awesome BLAM was and i know how high the bar is and it’s like, i dont wanna set the bar to the wrong height but its like how do i put all those years and all the memories and the insider jokes and movie marathons all into like, a tanglable level? you know? like im not nERVOUS nervous im just
( mssg » blaine | sent ) i dont wanna blow it. and i know that sounds so stupid but i know they said this can be really overwhelming and like, i spent so long thinking what it would be like if things were the other way and i cant even think of the words for it and i just dont want to scare you off or come off too strong but its also hard because like that WAS us you know? lol we were extra i guess u could say
( mssg » blaine | sent ) i’m so so so so so happy you ended up texting me tonight like you dont even know. it feels so good to talk to you again. but im insight 101, hit me with ur best shot, fire away.lol sry for the typos keyboard is silly
( mssg » sam | sent ) Then consider yourself officially signed up! There’s no escaping now.
( mssg » sam | sent ) I’ve learned better to guess. I’m usually wrong and it makes for a whole lot of awkwardness I’d rather avoid for not just the other person but myself as well. It’s not weird to say. It’s reassuring to hear that from someone who isn’t related to me and knew me before this. Sometimes I wonder if I’m like myself or if I’m losing myself. Or who I was.
( mssg » sam | sent ) I’m not supposed to think like that. I am who I am and that’s the biggest lesson I need to hang onto. Or so I hear. But that’s a lot easier said than done. Because I don’t want to forget who I was and change completely. I still love music. I still love being on the water. Not allowed to ride my horse but I love him a lot.
( mssg » sam | sent ) There’s so much I remember and I feel like the same person that I think I know as me but what if that isn’t me and everyone isn’t telling me? Those are the ideas that go through my head on the daily. So, thank you, for telling me that. Without me asking. I needed to hear it.
( mssg » sam | sent ) Yes, you can be honest.
( mssg » sam | sent ) Hey, Sam? You can’t possibly blow this. From what I know about you? You’re an sweet, kind person who doesn’t mind being patient enough with me to sit up at an ungodly hour and talk to me so I’m not lonely. You’re funny. You made me laugh until I couldn’t breath a dozen times or more. Please stop worrying. Put that thought as far out of your head as you possibly can and..
( mssg » sam | sent ) Be with me. Be my friend. Be here? Be yourself. I want to know you. That’s the cakewalk part. Don’t make it difficult for you. Let it be as easy as it was the first time? We’re gonna be fine.
( mssg » sam | sent ) Don’t worry about the typos. I might make a few here and there, too. It’s late. Okay. Let’s start with question number one. If you and I knew each other? That means you left because you weren’t at Dalton until now. Where did you go? Or were you from my old school and just transferred?
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