( mssg » blaine | sent ) Right. Got it. I’ll see you tomorrow, okay? ( mssg » blaine | deleted ) Sorry. This was a mistake. Come home and we’ll figure it out…
( mssg » kurt | sent ) Good. Yeah! Tomorrow sounds great! See you then.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) This. This is another reason. This is another reason that I need a break. We don’t need to be twenty-four seven, yet sometimes I feel guilted and I feel like I can’t breathe and it’s so exhausting.
( mssg » kurt | sent ) I’m not trying to make you feel guilty. I swear I’m not. I’ve never been that person and I’m not that person now. Listen. Everything’s fine, Kurt. ( mssg » kurt | sent ) I didn’t mean to make you feel like I’m suffocating you but I understand how I did now that you pointed it out. It was never my intention. I just got caught up in having you. Like I said. All I am saying is that I’ll make sure it doesn’t happen anymore. We’ll take a break and refocus ourselves.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) I may have to find a trophy for it, just because. Oh do you? What would you suggest for me holding you to it? ( mssg » blaine | sent ) We may have use for the other though.
( mssg » kurt | sent ) I could suggest a few things that come to mind. If I need to choose one to begin with? I think you demonstrating what ideas you have to put the paisley to use is probably at the top of my list. ( mssg » kurt | sent ) I lied. It’s second to your clothes being in a pile at the foot of the bed for starters and us taking advantage of being the only ones here. Because I miss testing how loud I can make your voice get before it cracks.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) Blaine, don’t do this. Its not like I broke up with you, its me saying we need space, that is all it is. I don’t even know if i’ll last the whole night.
( mssg » kurt | sent ) I’m sorry for whatever it is that I’m doing. I know it isn’t like that. I’m okay with this. It’s just a night.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) I do want you too. I want to be at home with you, and I want to stay with you and be with you all the time.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) We need this Blaine. We need to be separate for a day, take a fresh breath of air, and then we’re going to meet at home, maybe at a hotel, we could reenact our hotel meeting a year ago.
( mssg » kurt | sent ) Then why do you ( mssg » kurt | sent ) Sorry. I didn’t mean to send that. ( mssg » kurt | sent ) Okay. Sounds great. I’m sure Sam will be over the moon to get some serious game time in. I should go. I love you. Text me when you’re ready.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) I love you more than anything, you know that, right? I love being with you, and I love being able to wake up to you. I love being able to see you. But as much as I love everything, I love my space. I think maybe what we should do is stay at separate places for a day or two, maybe not see each other, and then we can come back together. I’m sure when we come back together, it will be so much better.
( mssg » kurt | sent ) Wait. I love you too. I love doing all of that with you. That’s all I’ve been waiting for is to be with you. But you don’t want me to come home? ( mssg » kurt | sent ) I mean ( mssg » kurt | sent ) Sure. A couple of days may be what we need. I can call Mercedes and Sam. It shouldn’t be a problem. I’ll go get a few things to take over there before you’re home.
“Blaine,” he sighed, moving in his seat to lean forwards properly, a hand going to the others forearm and giving a squeeze – he wasn’t sure if he was trying to reassure him or try to apologise in part for what he’d just said. “Please don’t take that the wrong way. I didn’t mean it like that.” His opinion hadn’t changed, he still thought they made and amazing couple and he would continue to think that. Hell, if he was the jealous type when it came to relationships they would be at the top of his list, they really had it going for them.
“It’s just that, there’s a big difference between dating and getting married. It’s a really big commitment to make – hell I wouldn’t even consider it now, and I’m a few years older.” Even with his steady boyfriend a few years ago, it had been out of the question. “I do support you both – absolutely so – it’s just that I feel this is a bad idea at the moment.” He didn’t want to upset Blaine, or Kurt by extension, but with how suffocating the city could be, he felt marriage was a bad idea to add on top of that.
He felt his heart sinking deeper and he wasn’t sure anymore if Elliott’s advice was the main cause. There were so many warning signs that he and Kurt were rushing too fast. That maybe there were issues underlying their engagement that they needed to work on still. Kurt’s excitement when they daydreamed about their wedding–or any mention of the word, really, no matter who’s wedding it was–used to be so over the top. Colors, music, themes, delighted clapping while Kurt bounced on his feet gushing so much Blaine couldn’t get a word in. That’s how beautifully excited his fiance’ used to get. Lately? Getting a word out of him about a guest list seemed to give Kurt a migraine or to automatically start grinding his teeth together.
Just stress. Too much nervousness now that the reality of his own wedding was drawing near. So? Blaine countered it by taking on the bulk of the responsibility in hopes that Kurt would catch up after getting a break to get his excitement back and realize everything was going to be okay. Hearing someone else say otherwise peeled his blinders back too far. So far that his arm retracted from Elliott’s touch and both were wrapped around his middle. Chin tucked down–Blaine shrugged and stared at the cheap lacquer on the tabletop. “I know there’s a difference. But it’s not a bad idea. Nothing about Kurt and I is a bad idea,” his throat struggled to swallow and he was getting too defensive. Too caved in on himself for it to be solely a reaction to well meaning advice. “We’ve made it through too much to give up on our future now. A-And I’m not going to let that happen. I can’t.”
( mssg » blaine | sent ) Well, Mr. Anderson, I think you may have just convinced me enough to play hookie from school. You should consider that an achievement. I will be holding you to that though, mark my words. Stripes. You’ve always looked fantastic in stripes, no matter how it’s worn.
( mssg » kurt | sent ) Did I, Mr. Hummel? Well. I consider it an achievement that deserves a trophy. Or.. You know what would be even better? I think you holding me to my words is EXACTLY what I deserve for stealing you from the halls of finer education for..um..extracurricular activities. ( mssg » kurt | sent ) Oh? I do? Alright! Stripes it is. You don’t have to tell me twice.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) Blaine, listen to me. I’m marrying you. We have our whole lives to catch up what we lost. I’m just saying I need time for myself. Me time isn’t a bad thing. You should take some me time too, it’s healthy for couples, or at least that’s what Elliott’s said, and someone like Oprah, pretty sure anyways. Don’t be sorry. ( mssg » blaine | sent ) I love you, okay?
( mssg » kurt | sent ) I know it isn’t a bad thing. I didn’t mean to imply that I thought it was. I guess I just forgot for a while because I’ve been too wrapped up in being around you to notice what I was doing. You’re right and so is Elliott and/or Oprah or whoever. I’ll back off and give you some room to breathe before I suffocate you. ( mssg » kurt | sent ) I love you, too. So so much.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) You and Santana are nude at the bridge?! Blaine, put your clothes back on right now. I’m on my way now, leaving the house now. Just stay there and i’ll get you. Then we’re going to go home, get you in the shower, and put you to bed.
( mssg » kurt | sent ) Nakehd?! what? Whoe said thye were naked? lmy clothes are on! i saaid we’re under tihe bridge singing..nevermind! ouer clothecs are on our bodies. that i can wpromise you. ( mssg » kurt | sent ) what ilf i don’t want to go to bed? maybe i wanna get frisky. e>:)
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