Reblog if youāre okay with rp partners editing out any typos in your reply if they notice them
I personally would love it if they would save me the embarrassment, Iāve thought about doing the same but I donāt want to give off the wrong impression.
Heās not blind to it, not anymore, Barry had remained oblivious both on accident and by choice. And he was at fault for the state they were in now, that much he will admit. The speedster had kept a distance from Blaine, while they found each otherā he never stopped running. Being with him at first was amazing, but as Barryās life became more dangerous. Distance. His soulmate was kept at a distance. It was putting a strain on the both of them emotionally, and it needed to stop. It had to. Barryā¦ Barry always wanted to find the one he was meant to be with, always thought it was Iris till she met Eddie. Platonically, the two matched, but romantically. Someone else for the both of them. Then he met Blaine, and the world was so much brighter. Smile gone, and his heart aches. Because he soulmate thinks heās a problem, he was never a problem, it was Barry. This was his fault.
āBlaine,ā brows furrowed, lips pursed and squeezes his hand tightly.Ā āBlaine, you are not a problemā never. This is my fault, Iām the problem here I should have never.ā Takes a small breath, resting his forehead against the others and nudged their noses together.Ā āIāmā¦.Iām SCARED of losing you, of you getting hurt that Iāve been pushing you away,ā shuts his eyes tightly. Look what heās done, he caused him pain and worry that Blaine didnāt deserve at all. Due to his lack of expressing his emotions, the fear of losing a loved one, abandonment, and failure.Ā āIām sorryā¦ Blaine, Iām really sorryā¦ā He had to fix this. Had to.
Blaine wanted to believe the promise.Ā It was a hope that came from deep down inside that heād been hanging onto throughout the ups and downs and tilted sideways heās been through while waiting for the other to give them and fate a chance.Ā Even though how everything turned out once heād found the person he was meant to be with wasnāt anywhere close to how he planned it to be?Ā Barry made him feel things that he couldnāt ignore.Ā Made every day without him that went by feel like something was missing.Ā Like it was never complete and he was shutting out the world and going to sleep with something left undone.Ā Or that he was missing a home he never quite set foot in yet but knew was out there, somewhere, waiting for him.
Foolishness wasnāt something he considered himself completely exempt from having in abundance from time to time.Ā Heās made mistakes in the past due to that very thing.Ā Years have gone by and heās tried to learn.Ā To guard himself more.Ā Because he knew he had to.Ā There was always the threat of feeling too much and having nothing come back.Ā Because when that happened?Ā He had only himself to blame, right?Ā Caution.Ā Hopeful caution.Ā Thatās what he felt now.Ā Warily studying the man in front of him before going perfectly still at the apology, Blaine was at a loss for words as his eyes softened and his face fell.Ā āNo..āĀ Words, Blaine.Ā USE THEM!Ā Ā āDonāt be sorry.Ā Your feelings matter.Ā Your reasons matter.Ā Youāre not gonna lose me, though.Ā I promise.Ā Because I feel like I keep losing you every day and Iād never..āĀ Do that to you.Ā Ā āNo sorries.Ā Let me show you how you Iām not going anywhere?Ā Can we just..try that?ā
( mssg Ā» blaine | deleted) Hey, Killer. Long time no see. Saw you checked in on Facebo what the fuck ( mssg Ā» blaine | deleted) Hey, Killer. Long time no see. Little birdy told me you were in the area, whatāre you doing on the West Coast? Concrete jungle bore you already, or did Kurt finally drive you aw ( mssg Ā» blaine | deleted) Hey, Killer. Long time no see. Saw your insta last night, West Coast suits you. You should stay awhile. You were five minutes away from my place. You still in town? ( mssg Ā» blaine | deleted) Hey, B. You still in town? ( mssg Ā» blaine | deleted) You didnāt have to come to Los Angeles to see that billboard, Anderson. My agent told me itād be going live in TS next month for the new CK campaign. Pictures really donāt do me justice, you should just come see in person. ( mssg Ā» blaine | sent ) Youāre better than Tourist Los Angeles, Killer. Saw your Insta this morning. If youāre still in town, Iām going to be insulted if you donāt actually let me show you around. And if on the off chance that doesnāt hook you, I know the best karaoke bar and dim sum joint in this entire state, donāt let me down.š ( mssg Ā» blaine | sent ) If you say no, know that Iām just going to assume youāve gotten a littleĀ flat over the years and donāt want to ruin your rep.
( mssg Ā» sebastian | sent )Ā Oh wow. Hey!Ā You saw that post?Ā Yeah, Iām still in town.Ā Iāll be here for another two weeks.Ā Part business, part pleasure. ( mssg Ā» sebastian | sent )Ā Sorry.Ā Wow.Ā I canāt believe you messaged me.
( mssg Ā» sebastian | sent )Ā It mightāve been a while since we last spoke or saw one another.Ā But!Ā You know what will never change?Ā My love for both of those things.Ā Itād be horrible shame to miss the best of either one āin the entire stateā according to Sebastian Smytheās standards. ( mssg Ā» sebastian | sent )Ā Flat?Ā Never.Ā Or.Ā I donāt think so?Ā You can be the judge of that in person, I guess?Ā When are you free?
Hey. Iām going through that with two people who I considered such close friends to me. Turns out? Guess not. Iām reaching that stage where I just have to admit that I didnāt mean that much to them. Itās really hard to face that fact but sometimes..thatās just what you got to do. Letting go is hard (Iām not there yet) but I know Iāve done all I can do and I just canāt be the only one wanting it anymore. š¦
Well.Ā Just think of it this way for yourself, too?Ā Cause I am trying to tell myself that by letting them go?Ā You kinda make room in your life for the sincere people who have stuck around and been there.Ā Maybe youāre, also, clearing up space for new people to come along?Ā Thatās what is happening for me.Ā Either way, Iām here if you need someone to talk to! xoxo
Ā Ā Ā Ā ā shit. amateur picking Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā – of course you knew that one, you look like that. ā
āI wouldnāt say amateur.Ā Wait.Ā Yeah.Ā No.Ā Amateur is a good word to use.Ā Not that Iām judging you. Hang on..Ā I look like what?Ā Please, explain that one.ā
Making the decision to leave McKinley and return to Dalton mightāve been impulsive.Ā Something he blurted at his mother over the phone the moment he walked through the door after the incident at the park with Sam.Ā But it was the only choice he had.Ā His gut was twisted with guilt and hurt and (even if he didnāt deserve to feel it in Samās eyes–maybe his own, too, considering the guilt part?) anger.Ā None of this was supposed to happen.Ā He couldnāt have known Sam would be returning back to Ohio. As far as he knew?Ā Sam was gone for good and he spent half a year stitching up his heart from where itād been torn apart when he watched the U-Haul disappearing down the road with Sam in it.Ā Ā
Blaine understood why seeing him with Kurt hurt Sam.Ā He got that.Ā What he couldnāt understand was the anger he saw on Samās face and heard inside the words that were pretty much spat in his direction before the other about-faced and left him sitting on their bench with his mouth open, words failing him and his heart breaking all over again.Ā Pain.Ā Yes.Ā Understanding that would be easy because he hurt, too.Ā But he never thought heād see that expression on Samās face directed at him.
Hurting him was something Blaine never wanted.Ā Would never do on purpose.Ā He never stopped loving him.Ā They didnāt end on either one of their terms.Ā Feelings donāt go away when someone is ripped from you.Ā He had to wonder if Sam knows that.Ā DoesĀ he?Ā Deep down past the pain and disappointment.. Sam still believes in him?Ā A little?Ā Maybe some distance and space for him to breathe might make him calm down.Ā A break from the hurt of seeing him and Kurt together could be the only way to fix them.Ā If fixing them was possible.Ā Thinking it wasnāt and heād ruined things forever simply because heād, finally, taken the step and moved on?Ā Breathing became difficult at the idea he only ruined things worse.Ā No, he did what he had to..Ā
Didnāt make leaving hurt less.Ā Or stave off his guilt for lying to Kurt about the reason why either.Ā He should have just told him the truth from the start.Ā Because once youāre as deep into the mess that lying in the first place got you?Ā More lies just keep piling up. Lesson learned the hard way.Ā Because this was never something that he never wouldāve done if heād given himself time to think.Ā Holding a freshly cleaned navy and crimson tie in his hand–Blaine sat in the living room chewing his lip and praying that sooner rather than later things would start to get better.
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