miller mayfair.

Exchanging a series of text with a random dude definitely wasn’t the strangest thing Miller had ever done.  Being here in New York, dealing with the obligations of visiting with family, he’d welcome the amusing distraction from his normal routine of staying in his hotel room watching whatever convenient marathon of shows they had on their most interesting channels.  The buzz of it quickly wore off, and he’d almost written off the guy completely, until his cellphone screen flashed up with the most magical word of all:  bar.

A bar was precisely the cures to all his ails.  Plus, it wasn’t like there was anything all that bizarre about meeting a stranger at a new location.  Miller did it all the time.  Simply par for the course in his line of work.  And it wasn’t like this was some kind of blind date type of deal.  More like.. blind bros.  A potential to commiserate with alcohol and conversation with someone who didn’t strike him as a total shmuck.

When he arrived, the first thing he did was amble over to the bar to place down a credit card for a tab.  Naturally, the account attached to it belonged to his boss – who would be footing the bill for this entire trip, but it was okay so long as he wrote it all off as being for ‘Research Purposes’.  Ada would probably raise her eyebrows at him for daring to try to pass off a bar bill as part of his field research.  Still.  This place was probably haunted.  So it counted.

Every place in New York was just a little bit haunted.

Miller grabbed the first drink of the night, whiskey in the glass that he thumped down on the counter near the piano.  There were enough people gathered around that spot that he could pretend he wasn’t drinking solo.  He squirmed on the stool to tug out his pack of smokes and lighter, after a quick inspection of the place indicated that it mercifully allowed smoking inside still.  Thank fuck.

The back of his hand shoved absently at the corner of his glasses as he gave a dismissive look at the dude at the piano.  This place wasn’t exactly his normal scene.  Miller didn’t usually get wasted in bars where dudes wore pants with boats on them.  He tapped out debris in a nearby ashtray while the guy sang, glancing around for a signal from the one he was supposed to meet here.

Then, while he stared a while longer at Boat Pants, it clicked in his head that this was exactly the person he had come to meet.  Drink and a show.  Welcome to New York.

As the last notes of She’s Always A Woman To Me finished with a round of applause with the small crowd that filtered in, Blaine plucked at a few more keys and gave the crowd a warm, appreciative smile. His tip jar was filling up nice enough that he decided to continue through to a couple more Billy Joel covers just to keep them coming.  New Yorkers (and especially the tourists) loving that Long Island boy always made paying tomorrow’s bills a little easier. He’d get to his own music later on tonight.  Bank account first, music you wrote and/or prefer after you’re sure the lights are going to stay on.  Ahh, the burdens of adulthood.

Piano Man followed to warm them up.  His eyes kept scanning the bar wondering if his mystery texter was already there.  For some reason, the solo guy at the bar who was watching him and smoking like a chimney stood out from the others.  Mainly because he was alone and the only people that came here by themselves were people he knew by name that had their preferred stools at the bar and drink orders in a could-make-them-in-his-sleep in Joe’s brain menu.

This guy wasn’t one of them.

Mystery texter identified?  Maybe?  As the vocals from his patrons picked up in time with his, Blaine dipped his head in a nod to Miller and then went back to making eye contact with those closest to him.  He even encouraged them to sing louder with the occasional wave of his hand and bounce on his piano bench.  New York State Of Mind rounded things out and just like that, he had his spending money taken care of.  Thank you, Mister Joel.

Standing up from his perch, Blaine gave a promise to be back later, thanked them for putting up with him so far tonight and stepped around the piano.  Bellying up next to Miller and trusting that his guess was right (or this was going to get awkward really fast), the singer brushed his hands on the outsides of his thighs so he could offer him a hand that wasn’t cramped up from banging on piano keys.  

“Hi..uhm.  Sorry to keep you waiting,” his eyebrows scrunched together just above that curious gaze reading back and forth over Millers, “Or did I guess wrong and you have no idea what I’m talking about?”

thequarterbxck.

Finn, of course, was aware of Blaine and Kurt’s break up. Heck, after Rachel, Kurt was immediately on the phone with Finn, which he had to admit surprised him a little. Finn wasn’t going to side with or blame either party though. He hadn’t wanted that when things had officially ended with Rachel months ago.

He could tell that Blaine was a little worse for wear, immediately having flashbacks of the same feeling. It was the worst. He grabbed his coffee from the table and followed Blaine to the counter, fully intending on treating Blaine to whatever he wanted. It was the least he could do to hopefully make Blaine’s day a little brighter.

“I’m pretty good. On my first official summer vacation as a teacher. Best job ever,” he chuckled, flashing him a soft grin. “How’ve you been? You doing okay?”

Stepping backwards as he watched Finn grab his coffee, Blaine stuffed his hands in his pockets and greeted him with a smile when he caught back up.  He hadn’t reached out to Finn since his return to Ohio for obvious reasons.  Mainly, him figuring that since Kurt and Finn were stepbrothers?  He was, automatically, put on the outside of any sort of relationship with him now, too.  Just like the rest of Kurt’s family.  

Yes, it was cutting them short from the immense credit they all deserved.  But it was easier to just assume than to think about trying to contact them and suffer through the hurt of being turned away.  A coward’s way out?  Definitely.  However, it was safer for him, too.  And it saved them the potential uncomfortable feeling of talking to the ex-fiance’.  Regardless of how much it hurt.

Being treated the opposite the first time he’s run into Finn?  Blaine couldn’t help the crooked smile he first gave him from blossoming into something more real. Especially with Finn’s news. “That’s great, Finn!  I’m so glad you love it.  I’m sure you’re amazing.”  Having turned around when they approached the counter, Blaine shrugged and stepped forward.  “I’m..?  I’ve been better.  I’ve been a lot worse though. I guess I’m getting there,” their eyes met with a lift of Blaine’s chin, “Slowly but surely. Sometimes that’s the perfect pace.  Right?”

stop being cute.

[ mssg : blaine  

🐤

 ] but i said i was sorry
[ mssg : blaine
 

🐤

 ] please? i’ll bake you those cookies you love
[ mssg : blaine 

🐤 ] 

😢 I want to cuddle you, I’ve missed you

( mssg » barry | sent ) I said stop being cute.  You’re doing the opposite!

( mssg » barry | sent ) The ones with cheesecake bits in them?
( mssg » barry | sent ) NO!  That’s not going to work!  I’m putting my foot down.
( mssg » barry | sent ) Oh God.  Cuddles, too?  That’s not playing fair at all. 

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rydenarmani :

from a veteran tumblr user: if your inbox is full of anon hate, block one of them and refresh the page. i can almost guarantee that most if not all of the other hateful messages will disappear.

your monsters aren’t as numerous as they want you to think. take away the veil, you’ll find a person pretending to be an army. you’re stronger than they are.

sebastian.

image     ( mssg » killer 🍑 | sent ) What can I say, Blaine? My phone must be trying to tell us something, so it seems. 
     ( mssg » killer 🍑 | sent ) I can bring some courvoisier. You’ll fall in love with it. Add some into your coffee and suddenly you’re getting both an energy boost and a buzz. 
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( mssg » sebastian | sent ) Hmm.  I wonder what that could be, Sebastian.
( mssg » sebastian | sent ) Wait.  Don’t answer that.  I realized my error sending that as soon as the bubble appeared on my screen.

😶

( mssg » sebastian | sent ) Great!  I look forward to finding out if how much you rave about it is true or not.  I could use a bit of both, too.  So that works out perfect.
( mssg » sebastian | sent )

You could bring something to sleep in, too.  So you can drink and not worry about driving.  Or I’m sure Cooper has clothes here that will fit you if you decide to do that later.  Whatever you’d like!

kurt. @avcntgarde

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        Tears welled up in his eyes as he stood, steadfast in the middle of Sebastian and Blaine’s impeccably styled living room. This wasn’t happening. This was not happening. After sharing that kiss… He knew the situation was complicated. Had KNOWN Blaine was the one engaged to be married, TAKEN by another man ever since their senior year of high school. But even after all this time, after all this endless soul searching and desperately trying to get over him, after dating many unlike him, even Kurt couldn’t possibly deny that whatever that kiss was — whatever that kiss meant, he had felt it to his CORE. Teenage infatuation evolved and blossomed into something much more. No longer needy. No longer foolish; desperate. Longing to have someone. He had wanted Blaine with EVERY FIBER OF HIS BEING, and he was certain Blaine had wanted him, too; their kiss hungry and sloppy, explosive enough to evoke fireworks.

This wasn’t HAPPENING.

He didn’t mean to get angry the way that he did. Maybe it was all that pent up frustration from all those years ago, locked up and hidden away for so long that cobwebs served as their main decoration. He refused to shed tears over someone so oblivious to his own feelings. He refused to lose his BEST FRIEND, to have Blaine act like and brush it off as though it were nothing. Like they were NOTHING.

         ❛ I can’t believe you’re STILL going through with this. ❜

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      Blaine wasn’t oblivious enough to not see how lately, Kurt (and he) were becoming more distant from each other.  With his wedding on the horizon, he and his best friend tapered off on their meet ups for coffee that were once a weekly occurrence between Blaine’s lecture he’d been holding as part of getting his doctorate at a school close by where Kurt worked. Their texts disintegrated to the point they barely spoke to one another outside of ‘hello, what’s up, and how are you doing?’s.  Which is why he’d invited Kurt over.  To talk this through.  And then everything fell out from underneath them..when Kurt finally let go.

Sometime during the escalating conversation, they both snapped.  Blaine knew the moment he did was when Kurt’s mouth crashed with his.  Hands could still feel the texture of warm, pale skin cupped his face

and the ghost of a delicate press of fingertips against his temples were ingrained in his memory from this day on.  The feeling of being caught, held right here by Kurt tilted his gravity, lifted him up off his heels. That dangerous second when he opened his mouth to the kiss (out of instinct and maybe..no..he couldn’t lie..something more), there was no going back.  It was messy, hungry.  His heart hammered in his chest so fast it echoed in his ears and he could still taste Kurt as he stood there trying to breathe and force himself not to think about instant guilt that flooded in and sank into his bones.  He would do that later..  Oh, God.  He would.  The second he was alone

Speechless, he felt tears well up as he watched Kurt struggle with hiding his own and he knew how deep the hurt inside someone he loved so much (because a part of him did and always would love Kurt in his own way..) ran.  The sight tore his throat to ribbons, shoved a rock into his stomach and he couldn’t swallow, couldn’t blink, couldn’t look away as he felt his efforts fail and the corners his eyes became wet.

“I-I’m sorry.  You’re the one person I can’t,” he stopped himself from driving the last nail in and frustratedly rubbed his cheek dry with the underside of his wrist, “..you mean SO MUCH to me. You always will but..  This is my life.  It has been since forever ago.  I want you in it.  I need you in it.  But?  I just can’t walk away.. I won’t.  Please understand?”

Then there is the boy you can never stop thinking about. Whenever you see his name, it trips you up. Even if it’s one that belongs to many others, even if he belongs to someone else. You know he is a symbol of your weakness, your Kryptonite. How he rushes in like wildfire and burns through everything you worked so hard to build since he last left you in ashes.