( mssg » kurt | sent ) I’m so sorry.  I know.  You’re right.  I did this.  All of this was my fault.  Every mistake I made lead to this exact moment and I just keep making them.
( mssg » kurt | sent ) You, obviously, matter.  Even though I did a horrible job at showing it.  I tried to.  I messed it all up.  Please tell me you know deep down that you always mattered because you do.  So so much.     
( mssg » kurt | sent ) Do you know what it’s like to feel like you’ve been erased?
( mssg » kurt | sent ) To know you don’t exist to someone who means the world to you?   
( mssg » kurt | sent ) It’s like you’re a ghost inside of yourself.  Hollow and empty and not really real anymore.  That your world isn’t all there the way it was a day ago.  It’s gone and you have nothing to fill it up with.  Parts of your life are just gone because you’re the only one who lived them but you weren’t and that part doesn’t matter..
( mssg » kurt | sent ) I just didn’t want to be someone who was deleted anymore.

@tongueticd ; continued from here.