sebastian.

_{( mssg » blaine | sent ) Blaine… Hearing from you is all I wanted.
( mssg » blaine | sent ) & now I finally have the chance to say everything I wanted to say, before I was scared. I never wanted to throw the slushie. I planned it out, thought it would score me some points, & when we were all singing I was going to back down but my impulse took over & I just got so mad. Even if it would of hit Kurt like planned I would still feel just as bad as I do right now. 
( mssg » blaine | sent ) & listen, this explanation isn’t for me to give myself a good name. I just want to make it clear, I never ever wanted to hurt you. Or anyone. Right after it hit you I felt everything closing in on me. I shut down, I couldn’t go to help you because I knew if I did it would all go down from there. It’s been the only thing on my mind. Please, Blaine. I don’t apologize much, to anyone. Take this one? I can come visit you, I’ll bring you anything you want. Maybe tell me how surgery went. I owe you my all. How mad at me are you? I regret everything.}

( mssg » sebastian | sent ) Score you points with who?  The Warblers?  The Warblers I left behind this year might’ve done some shady things to get a leg up on the competition.  What you did was beyond sneaking into auditoriums to figure out the acoustics and get an unfair practice in.  Or any of the other /harmless/ things we’ve done.

( mssg » sebastian | sent ) but then–none of them bothered to come help so I don’t know.  Maybe you were on the right track.  As much as it hurts to think so.
( mssg » sebastian | sent ) if it hit Kurt we wouldn’t be having this conversation.  We wouldn’t be having any conversation actually.
( mssg » sebastian | sent ) I’m sorry that was harsher than i wanted it to be. I know you aren’t the type to apologize much.  I’m not the type to turn an apology down if it’s given honestly.  I can accept it but we’re going to have to work on trusting each other again.  What happened goes deeper than a scratched eye.
( mssg » sebastian | sent ) You can come over.  I’d rather talk about this in person.  no you don’t have to bring anything. the door will be open. I promise I’ll try to be awake.